heart reaction

transported through rings of blue light
swimming through the porthole, climbing out of my vessel and flying free
there is a place there
inside and out of me,
and this is the space where i long to reside all of the time.
i see glimmers of it in the sunshine, the feeling of uncontained laughter,
a long embrace, a baby staring me down, a joyous weling of spirit and sound and delight of simply being alive.
i have never sustained the state of divine bliss in the arms of a lover. i am curious if such a lover exists, or if the divine is my lover itself.