lessons of life

relief floods me as my world shifts back into place. my guest from the past is on his way home. i have had a week to learn some new lessons and the course was intense. it is interesting to see how different people handle their obstacles and pain through life. everyone has struggle...some seem to get more tragedy then others however. it is difficult to put myself in a certain someone's shoes, but it seemed the whole visit revolved around talking about the trials and tribulations of his world. the terrible things that happened and keep happening. the unburdening of all these dark memories and the constant reliving of the past left me with a few deep feelings. one was that i don't want to dwell in the past. another was that life is too short to bring the vibrations down. i have a few friends that consider themselves happy-go-lucky individuals. i'd like to know when the smiling begins? i'd like to know when their world doesn't revolve around wounds and saddle sores? i'd like to see them lift up and fly...taste the food in front of them, kiss the sunset with their eyes closed and hearts open. i want to make an effort to be a positive light in the world and touch others so they feel more uplifted by sharing time and space together.

sometimes it is strange what you'll find by opening a time capsule. just one more step toward being in the now...living in the moment. there have been such extremes in this department and now i just want peace. alone time. yoga. silence. music. painting.