procrastination nation

that's right, i have a list of "shoulds" that i am putting to the side. instead i'll eat a veggie burger, pay bills online, and nap. ahhh, napping. my arms are so sore from the workouts lately and my car is almost ready to go up north. i am going on an adventure tomorrow up to the redwoods! i have never been on a retreat...i've been on plenty of trips but this feels different. i'm gonna go frolic with the fairies and yogis....YAY! music, a huge redwood hot tub...fires, hiking, circles for talking and sharing and....and....i don't know what else! i almsot bailed on the whole thing, feeling especially vulnerable and shaky the past week or so. i have been doing a lot of inner-play/work and it has left me able to laugh and cry and emote more than ever. i cried my brains out at a meeting last night listening to a man tell his story about why he was in a wheel chair. then i came home and clicked on the rest of my payment for the retreat. done. life is too short. why spend our lives procrastinating...putting off our joy of the now? all the lessons flew in to the space usually reserved for excuses and fear. ahhhh, let's do this. we have a nation waiting for someone to do something...we have a youth putting of growing up and becoming leaders...we have ourselves. it starts there, with the only thing i can change...how i choose to be. and i choose to BE!!!! active! loving! excited! peaceful! exuberant! adventurous! open! hopeful! strong! present in this moment...i won't be part of the procrastination nation right now.